MAY, The Second Month That Is A Verb

MAY, the second month that is a verb, March beats to a different drummer, but May is full of choices.  

MAY, the month of permission or as I like to remind myself Pure Mission.

May, the month I find the quickest in passing. Celebrated for May Day with rings around the May Poles, Mothers Day, Memorials and Marilyn’s birthday. 

As a child I remember playing ‘Mother may I?’-a game about  asking permission & paying attention. 

‘Yes, you May,’ was what we wanted to hear. A Mother was in charge. It was the role of power. 

Ever wonder that what May stop us from being, doing or having what we want is waiting for Mother’s permission?

“Mother May I?” “Yes, you May.”

May a month with 30 days of freedom & permission to ask for what you want. 

You May, permission granted
You MAY choose. 
You MAY decide.
You May choose to remember  that each day this month is a May Day with permission to choose, to decide, to change, to remember to be, do or have what you want.

You May. I May. We May. 

With Little or No Doubt I Said Yes

Willingness,working toward having, grooming, acknowledging, enjoying, & appreciating willingness.  
    
Willingness is a pathway to enthusiasm, excitement. It makes life a party, as in to participate. To play is a willful act. 

Will is a powerful name, William, Will I Am, may say it all. All I am is my will.
    
I use my Will to choose, it’s the vehicle from which I decide. 

Willingness moves from a verb, a doing, to a noun, a way of being. 

It was an epiphany when I realized that Willingness is the opposite of resistance. 

Does Willingness build Will? Does choosing to ‘show up’ build Will?

To show up in life is a major act of Willingness.

It requires putting away being right, ones fears, & not being attached or identified with outcome.

Will is risking, choosing to have fun, to be creator of your own world, to be responsible, accountable, even Setting A Good Example by the grace with which Will manifests.
    
Where did I get all my Willingness?
    
My favorite teachers were always Willing to go along with my enthusiasm, & bring excitement to the learning game. 

My coaches loved my Willingness to try ‘it’ another way. 

My spiritual teachers were all major players in resisting not evil. They said to fully experience & be here & now putting Willingness forward.

You didn’t have to believe what they said, just be Willing to listen.

Where would we be without Will? Perhaps humanity would be downgraded into indoctrinated servants of the most willful one, relegated like the ants in the wizardly tales of Merlin.  

Does Will ever join forces with evil? Does it ever join with vengeance or revenge to “get them, get even?”

Does Will ever become habitual & lose its purity or intensity?

 Is the human spirit best judged by our Willingness to be the other virtues, Compassion, Grace, Patience, Trust, Honesty, and Forgiveness?   
             
      Willingness is not who I am, it is how I chose to be. 

All’s Well

39 - alls well

Seems common sense, but I am noticing the need to give to myself.  I withhold  giving to me when I feel all is NOT well. This is crazy. This is  when I most need to feed me. It’s related to not asking for help. Not calling a buddi, a mentor or coach when ‘stinking-thinkin’ takes hold.  My not ‘All’s well’ turns into a type of self punishment that feeds the must’s, shoulds, ought’s &  have too’s of ‘stinking thinking’.  A very negative feedback loop.It seems to be epidemic, I find that if I haven’t heard from a buddi for a while they can be caught in their own version with a similar  noose.

It is possible to spend a lot of time making excuses, believing the really big lies for not receiving:

I don’t deserve. I am not good enough. I don’t belong.

All common forms of self-abasement from childhood imprints that years in therapy, seminars, a library of self help book, prayer, & meditation may not give relief or the common sense to ask for help, or reverse the process by giving to others.

We give to others for love, for their attention, to pay the rent. What & how can we give to ourselves? How can we replenish our coffers? It’s a balance, time  spent giving necessitates time spent receiving.

For years I had bowling as a gift to myself. I was good, & bowling was good to me. I practiced paying attention, developing my skill, learning the nuances of the game. Being competitive keep me in my body while taking my attention off business & gave me strength for creativity, family & friends & an overall feeling of ‘All’s well.’Now I have NIA & Zumba dance classes, Toastmasters, Chi Gong, & golf (a practice of being cheerful no matter where the ball goes) & writing Church of Attention each week. They all are gifts to me.

It can be as simple as get back in your body by taking a walk, dancing, playing sports, or gardening. Giving to yourself the gift of being present is one way of getting back into the now, out of your head & back into your “All’s well.’